Okay, so…I’ve been MIA for how long now? I’ve lost track of EVERYTHING!
Let me start off by saying I don’t even live in the same Province anymore! I’ve moved thousands of miles out West across Canada. In the past year, I have dealt with a lot of loss. I lost my Grandmother to a hemorrhagic stroke… I lost my boyfriend of 5 years because he decided he was going to cheat on me. I lost one of my best friends just because? I essentially lost myself. I fell into depression, severe anxiety and panic attacks… just a complete wreck.
Over the past few months since January, I have made serious changes to my life. I meditate now and do Yoga? Never did that stuff in my entire LIFE. I went vegan for a while which I’ve done before. But most importantly, I left my entire life back in Toronto, Ontario that I’ve built for 27 years. Why? Because I can and because I direly needed to.
Now, the reason being for this post is because I want to really challenge myself. Sadly, through everything I have gone through.. I have lost serious amounts of willpower, self control and determination. Through writing again, I am hoping it might help me stay focused and on track with my goals. Plus, its always good to voice your shit to people who will judge you blindly 🙂
So, get ready WordPressers! Starting tomorrow June 1st I’m going to fill your newsfeed with bullshit of my shitty workouts and weight loss bird food diets! Kidding.. I wouldn’t eat bird food… But I would eat rabbit food 😉
Ps. Jenna is back
I wanted to share the most beautiful thing that I able to witness and be apart of today. I was blessed with my first experience of treating an autistic young woman today in a couples massage with her mother. She had been treated at the clinic before and I was informed she doesn’t stay still and it would be impossible to communicate with her. I have never treated anyone with autism before so I was a little nervous. She wasn’t high functioning so I could not speak to her directly, I had to speak with her mother who was also receiving massage on the table next to her.
During the treatment she was motionless but made cooing noises from time to time. I would ask her mother if she was okay and look at her facial expressions for feedback. It varied from smiles, eyes closed, and blank stares. She always however, looked at her mother and smiled. At one point during the massage her mother and her locked eyes. Her mother lay there smiling at her and she smiled back. Her mother loves her so much and her daughter knows and returns the love. I could feel the energy from her run through me. I felt the love, the happiness, the innocents. I started to tear up just watching them share that moment. It was such a beautiful thing to witness and how it can instantly restore faith in humanity. I know she sensed my emotions because she looked at me and smiled. She watched my face for the rest of the treatment. Touch is one of the most powerful senses. One of the many reasons I love my job.
Have a great weekend!
A man’s country is not a certain area of land, of mountains, rivers, and woods, but it is a principle and patriotism is loyalty to that principle.
Yes sir! Life is too short not to express yourself. Why not do it through song and dance!
Enjoy this epic dance video!
Peach and white bean (Breakfast)
- 1/2 Cup rice milk
- 1/4 Cup probiotic yogurt
- 1 Cup frozen peaches
- 1/4 canned white beans
- 1/4 Tsp cinnamon
Verdict = I was sketchy about this one. Especially with the beans! Turns out the peaches just mask the entirety of the bean flavour and give it a perfect texture! The cinnamon helps too! I had found this one under fat burning smoothies that actually work! I really liked this smoothie and since I have a can of beans open now, will probably be making it again.
Berry Chocolate Beet smoothie (Dinner)
- 1 Beet root
- 1 Banana
- 1 Cup of chocolate almond milk
- 1/2 Cup mixed berries
- 1 scoop chocolate whey protien powder
- 2 Tbs almond butter (I used 1 Tbs of light peanut butter instead)
Verdict= UUUUUUUGHGGHHHHHH! Sooooooo goooooooodddddddd! Kept me alive during my 8 hour shift at work today! Kinda upset that I’m on my second last day.. And I thought I wouldn’t make it for 14 days… I could go on forever!!
Grapefruit and Mango Smoothie (Breakfast/lunch)
- 1 Grapefruit
- 1 Banana
- 1 Cup frozen mango
- 1/2 Cup unsweetened Almond milk
- 1 Tbs chia seeds
Verdict= super yummy, super filling! Super sour! Loved it! Brought it with me today on a super busy day and stayed full!
Detox smoothie (Dinner)
- 1/2 cup antioxidant juice
- 1/2 cup spinach
- 1/2 banana
- 1/2 cup frozen missed berries
- 1/2 Tbs flax seed powder
- 1/2 Tbs super green powder
- 1/4 Tsp organic red maca powder
Verdict = super yummy! I will be repeating this one again. Also, realization, I’ve been drinking about two servings per every smoothie I’ve made. This one was only one serving and wtf is that ^^ didn’t even make it to the top of the jar! Well, guess I’m a two serving type of gal. No wonder I wasn’t starving… Jesus!
HAPPY EASTER SUNDAY WORDPRESS! XOX
Chocolatey avocado smoothie (Breakfast/Lunch)
- 1 Cup frozen strawberries
- 1 ripe avocado
- 1 1/2 Cups Almond milk (I did 1 cup regular almond milk 1/2 cup chocolate almond milk)
- 1 Tbs chocolate whey powder
- 1 Tbs chia seeds
Verdict= this was extremely thick and rich and yummy! Probably not the healthiest but hey, I gotta have something on Easter Sunday. I turned down fresh apple strudel yesterday! APPLE FREAKING STRUDEL! Held me all the way till 4 pm, I’m getting really good at this. Sad it’s almost over.
Beet and orange smoothie (Dinner)
- 1 beet
- 1 cup of Orange juice
- 1 Tangerine
- 1/2 Banana
- 1 Apple
- Handful of mixed berries
- Handful of kale
Verdict= Tart. very tart. Not killer sweet like last time I made a beet smoothie. The one that I had no choice but to pour down the drain. Finished all of this one though 🙂