Okay, so…I’ve been MIA for how long now? I’ve lost track of EVERYTHING!
Let me start off by saying I don’t even live in the same Province anymore! I’ve moved thousands of miles out West across Canada. In the past year, I have dealt with a lot of loss. I lost my Grandmother to a hemorrhagic stroke… I lost my boyfriend of 5 years because he decided he was going to cheat on me. I lost one of my best friends just because? I essentially lost myself. I fell into depression, severe anxiety and panic attacks… just a complete wreck.
Over the past few months since January, I have made serious changes to my life. I meditate now and do Yoga? Never did that stuff in my entire LIFE. I went vegan for a while which I’ve done before. But most importantly, I left my entire life back in Toronto, Ontario that I’ve built for 27 years. Why? Because I can and because I direly needed to.
Now, the reason being for this post is because I want to really challenge myself. Sadly, through everything I have gone through.. I have lost serious amounts of willpower, self control and determination. Through writing again, I am hoping it might help me stay focused and on track with my goals. Plus, its always good to voice your shit to people who will judge you blindly 🙂
So, get ready WordPressers! Starting tomorrow June 1st I’m going to fill your newsfeed with bullshit of my shitty workouts and weight loss bird food diets! Kidding.. I wouldn’t eat bird food… But I would eat rabbit food 😉
Ps. Jenna is back
I wanted to share the most beautiful thing that I able to witness and be apart of today. I was blessed with my first experience of treating an autistic young woman today in a couples massage with her mother. She had been treated at the clinic before and I was informed she doesn’t stay still and it would be impossible to communicate with her. I have never treated anyone with autism before so I was a little nervous. She wasn’t high functioning so I could not speak to her directly, I had to speak with her mother who was also receiving massage on the table next to her.
During the treatment she was motionless but made cooing noises from time to time. I would ask her mother if she was okay and look at her facial expressions for feedback. It varied from smiles, eyes closed, and blank stares. She always however, looked at her mother and smiled. At one point during the massage her mother and her locked eyes. Her mother lay there smiling at her and she smiled back. Her mother loves her so much and her daughter knows and returns the love. I could feel the energy from her run through me. I felt the love, the happiness, the innocents. I started to tear up just watching them share that moment. It was such a beautiful thing to witness and how it can instantly restore faith in humanity. I know she sensed my emotions because she looked at me and smiled. She watched my face for the rest of the treatment. Touch is one of the most powerful senses. One of the many reasons I love my job.
Have a great weekend!
Tropical Green Smoothie (Breakfast)
- 1 Cup of Pineapple
- 1 Cup of mango
- 1 Cup of Chashew milk
- Handful of kale and spinach
- 1 Banana
- 1 Tbs of chia and hemp seeds
Antioxidant Smoothie (Dinner)
- 2 Cups of mixed berries
- 1 Cup orange Juice
- 1/2 Cup Greek yogurt
Okay. So, I’ve made it to day 4. I’m doing good right? Other then that fact I can’t stop having shit attacks!! It’s been 2 days straight now! You’d think I’d be losing weight or something, but no. Not I. *SIGH* a week is not even over yet! I feel like I’ve been doing this for a month! God I’m weak!
Grapefruit Green Smoothie (Breakfast)
- 1 Grapefruit
- 1 Kiwi
- 2 Cups of packed spinach
- 1 large Banana
- 1/2 Cup OJ
- 1/2 Tsp chopped ginger root
Verdict = that about sums it up.
Peanut Butter Jelly Smoothie (breakfast/lunch)
- 1 cup chilled black coffee
- 1 cup chocolate almond milk
- Handful of mixed berries
- 1 Tbs peanut butter
- 1/4 cup chocolate whey protein powder
- Pinch of cinnamon
Verdict = freaking Godly!!
This smoothie tasted A-Mazing! The only con to this smoothie was the fact it tasted so good that, it never made it till lunch! Heck! It barely made it out the door! Definitely going to be making this smoothie again! It honestly tasted like an amazing PBnJ sandwich without the bread, with a kick of chocolate and coffee! Soooo tasty!
It gave me energy throughout the entire day. It also gave me the urge to shit myself, seeing as the coffee is like a diuretic to me -.-‘.. STILL, an awesome smoothie none the less. For lunch, I decided to bring back solids.. If you consider hummus and baby carrots lunch I guess. I NEEDED TO CHEW! It was more of a snack. I caved. Although, it was pizza Friday at work today and the meat lovers pizza looked me dead in the eyes. I said no, not today my friend, not today. Self-control FTW!… I stole a piece of sausage though…What? I’M HUMAN!
My dinner smoothie looked and sounded pretty promising! Until you get to the middle layer… the green layer… the layer of death. HOLY FUCKING PARSLEY! When I tasted it before I layered it on, it wasn’t too bad. I tasted more Kiwi then anything. That was because it was only a spoon full. I drank this bad boy with a straw and let me tell you, I nearly gagged to death. In a state of panic I swirled the straw around and ended up mixing the three layers together. OH my JESUS. It tasted like a homeless man’s corn hole. I don’t know what that actually tastes like, but I can only imagine it would taste like that. GAG.
I’m starting to see a trend here. Parsley is the devil and should be banned from all smoothies! WHO DOES THIS TO A SMOOTHIE!?! GAWD! 3 Layer Smoothie (Dinner)
- 1 Tomato
- 1/2 Cup frozen mixed berries
- 1 Tsp Organic Maca powder
- Chia seeds
- Handful of parsley
- Handful of Spinach and Kale
- 1 Kiwi
- 1/2 Organic Banana
- 1 Tbs of Green powder
- Chia seeds
- 1/2 Organic Banana
- 1 Orange
- 1 Cup of frozen diced Mangos
Verdict = mmm-DEAD-YUMMMM (In order of layers)
Needless to say, I survived day 2 and ready to take on day 3! The smoothies better come out 10/10 tomorrow. One more horse shit smoothie and I’m out!.. Not out… just loosing faith….I can’t swallow any more Booster Juice lies *cries*
Green Goodness (Breakfast/Lunch)
- 2 Cups of Green tea (chilled)
- 1/2 Avocado
- 1 Granny smith apple
- 1 Cup sliced cucumber
- 1 Celery stalk
- 1 Cup of Parsley
- 1 Scoop of super green powder
- 1 handful of kale/baby spinach
- 1 Tbs of Hemp seeds
- 2 Tbs Chia seeds
Let’s start here. I made this diarrhea green smoothie this morning thinking “God! This is so healthy! I’m so excited!” But then I had my first sip and instantly got a headache. So one of two things happend. 1) Maybe because it tasted like baby braf and bird seeds. Or 2) My body was like “WTF is that?!? This is not beef!” Reject!
Anyways, I finished that putrid drink that made me gag with every sip. Note to self green tea, it’s a no for me.. Especially when you leave the teabag in the cup overnight in the fridge. What a retard! Live and learn I guess.
I did however, manage to survive the entire day without eating a single solid.
Don’t even get me started with dinner… I attempted to make a smoothie that I’ve had at booster juice that tasted amazing! Umm… Needless to say it tasted NOTHING like it! It didn’t even LOOK like it! =(
- Handful of kale
- 1 Cup of mango
- 1 Cup of pineapple
- 1/2 Banana
- 2 Radishes
- 1/2 Tsp of Maca powder (red/black/yellow)
- Cinnamon to top
What a horrible way to start off a 14 day smoothie lifestyle. Le BARF!