Steal Away – Robbie Dupree (1980)

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C’mon and hold me
Just like you told me
Then show me
What I want to know

Why don’t we steal away
Why don’t we steal away
Into the night
I know it ain’t right
Don’t tease me
Why don’t you please me
Then show me
What you came here for

Why don’t we steal away
Why don’t we steal away
Into the night
I know it ain’t right
Into the night, baby
Make it tonight
Oooh

I caught you glancin’ my way
And I know what you’re after
(No second chances tonight)

Why don’t we steal away
Why don’t we steal away
Why don’t we steal away
Why don’t we steal away
Into the night

I know it ain’t right
Into the night
I know it ain’t right
Why don’t we steal away
I know it ain’t right
Into the night, babe
Why don’t we steal away
Make it tonight
Why don’t we steal away

5..4..3..2..1..Go

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So I did a thing recently.. something I never thought I could do. I purposely forced myself out of my comfort zone. What did I do you ask? I went live. What does that mean? I streamed. Who the beep cares? ME! I CARE! Because the old me would never have done something that terrifies her!

You might be thinking something along the lines of, “What is so scary about streaming? Literally everyone and their pet dog does it daily”.. While this may be true, I have stated before that I have a crippling fear of being judged and ridiculed. So, me pressing that “Go Live” button really shocked me. Now, I didn’t do anything mind blowing like using a webcam.. baby steps.. But I spoke on mic while I played a video game of my choice for a full hour and thirty-ish minutes. I even had 2-3 people chatting with me and one person even sent me a “raid” of 5 people. If you don’t know what a raid is, kudos to you. A raid is when a streamer sends their viewers from their stream to your stream. I think I explained that right. This is nothing to write home about but it was honestly exhilarating for me. No one (as of yet) insulted my voice that I absolutely hate. No one said (yet) that I am terrible at gaming… I am still too much of a scaredy cat to even turn on the webcam..maybe that will be my next step.

That first time was daunting. I remember my heart beating so fast I could hear it. My hands were shaking and sweaty. All I could think to myself were excuses NOT to do it… But, I found myself counting from 5-1 and then closing my eyes while I clicked the button..That’s it.. I was live. It’s not like there was no going back from that.. I could of just as easily pressed the stop button and ended the “stream”.. but I didn’t. From there, I got my first viewer.. my heart was racing.. I couldn’t find words to say.. I sat there silently just playing the game. Then my second viewer showed up but didn’t stick around.. 15 minutes into the streams the person who had been there started to talk to me..so I started to respond. Soon, there was 3 viewers off and on.. they started to stick around longer. Another person started to talk. I was now an hour and fifteen minutes in. 10 minutes before I finished streaming, I received my very first raid. I was so grateful and so nervous..mainly because now, I felt as if I was responsible to entertain these 5 people who were just watching someone with experience. I ended my stream shortly after, thanked the people who stuck around and went offline.. My mind raced for hours after that and I just wanted to delete the one thing I finally accomplished… speaking to the public.. online.

Since then I have streamed 4 more times. I have 6 followers which might seem like nothing, but they are 6 people who found me entertaining (I think).. My goal is to become affiliate but there is so much discouragement in process of that.. like getting 50 followers, having at least a minimum of 3 people stick around for the next 30 days..It’s easy to stream.. just building an audience is the hard part.. let alone a following.

However, minus looking at the negatives, I am trying to look at the positives. I am trying to build a backbone here. I am trying to get over my fear of public speaking and judgment while being 100% me…

I, for one, think that is something to be proud about.

“Do one thing everyday that scares you” – Eleanor Roosevelt

Have a good day everyone.

Love Jenna ❤

Sign Of The Gypsy Queen – April Wine (1981)

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Lightning smokes on the hill arise
Brought the man with the warning light
Shouting loud, “You had better fly!”
While the darkness can help you hide
Trouble’s comin’ without control
No-one’s stayin’ that’s got a hope
Hurricane at the very least
In the words of the gypsy queen

Sign of the gypsy queen
Pack your things and leave
Word of a woman who knows
Take all your gold and you go

Get my saddle and tie it on
Western wind, who is fast and strong
Jump on back, he’s good and long
We’ll resist ’til we reach the dawn
Runnin’ seems like the best defense
Stayin’ just don’t make any sense
No-one could ever stop it now
Show the cards of the gypsy town

Sign of the gypsy queen
Pack your things and leave
Word of a woman who knows
Take all your gold and you go

A Whiter Shade Of Pale – Procol Harum (1967)

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We skipped the light fandango
Turned cartwheels ‘cross the floor
I was feeling kinda seasick
But the crowd called out for more
The room was humming harder
As the ceiling flew away
When we called out for another drink
And the waiter brought a tray

And so it was that later
As the miller told his tale
That her face, at first just ghostly,
Turned a whiter shade of pale

She said, “There is no reason
And the truth is plain to see. ”
But I wandered through my playing cards
And they would not let her be
One of sixteen vestal virgins
Who were leaving for the coast
And although my eyes were open wide
They might have just as well been closed

And so it was that later
As the miller told his tale
That her face, at first just ghostly,
Turned a whiter shade of pale

She said, “I’m here on a shore leave,”
Though we were miles at sea.
I pointed out this detail
And forced her to agree,
Saying, “You must be the mermaid
Who took King Neptune for a ride. ”
And she smiled at me so sweetly
That my anger straightway died.

And so it was that later
As the miller told his tale
That her face, at first just ghostly,
Turned a whiter shade of pale

If music be the food of love
Then laughter is it’s queen
And likewise if behind is in front
Then dirt in truth is clean
My mouth by then like cardboard
Seemed to slip straight through my head
So we crash-dived straightway quickly
And attacked the ocean bed

And so it was that later
As the miller told his tale
That her face, at first just ghostly,
Turned a whiter shade of pale

Things I Think Are Way TOO Expensive

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I won’t even ask the question “Have you ever been in the grocery store and just broke out into hysterical laughter because you looked at the price of an single avocado?”…Of course you have! I mean.. who in their in their right mind think’s it is okay to charge $4.00 CAN for a SINGLE AVOCADO?! In Toronto at 13% that is a total of $4.52 that will literally rot if you do not eat in within 12 hours! OR If you are someone who buys them unripe,  they will sit on your counter for 2 weeks being hard as a rock until that one day you don’t check it and then it’s rotten the next. Fuck you avocado..

I had the hardest time yesterday walking through the store yesterday not snapping shit on literally every price tag I saw. I’ll admit that I gravitate towards the items that are “organic” or “non-GMO”.. but even the regular high pesticide/cancer inducing products are OUTRAGEOUSLY priced. If you are someone who follows or knows of the EWG Dirty Dozen, then you know to usually avoid the produce that is listed there… But come on…You have to choose between life or death in these situations..HEY CANADA… WTF?!

Here is a list of items that I “wanted” to buy yesterday that I had to walk away from cause I am not about to take out a line of credit to go grocery shopping for a weeks worth of food!

Organic Spinach

I usually buy the larger container to last me the whole week. I use it in my smoothie every morning for breakfast. If I am able to get to Costco that week, I will usually buy it there. It will run me $3.99 for the big container. Now, while that isn’t bad, the problem with Costco is their shit expires too fast. The expiry dates are usually around 4-5 days after purchasing. In any grocery store I have been in outside of Costco, the big organic container of spinach before tax is $5.99! That is almost 7 DOLLARS AFTER TAX! I use about 1 & 1/2 cup a day in my  smoothie and it still ends up rotting before day 4 or 5! Is this legal?!

Avocados

Fuck you …

Berries

I usually will buy frozen which I know is more expensive. But buying organic berries frozen or not is just… UGH. I had to get a small bag of NOT organic strawberries because I didn’t get them from Costco the weekend before. For a small bag of frozen REGULAR strawberries..$6.99. A small bag of organic strawberries….$11.99.. A big bag of frozen organic mixed berries at Costco -$15.49..a bag of regular frozen mixed berries at Costco $11.49.. THESE ARE ALL BEFORE TAX!

Sweet Potatoes

If you are lucky to find somewhere that sells the organic ones individually, you might get lucky spending ~$3.00-4.00 for 4-5 potatoes. If they only sell them in the bags of 5-6, you are looking at spending $7.00-$9.00 BEFORE tax! The potatoes in the bags are no bigger then a small ginger root! WTF AM I PAYING FOR?!? I’ve seen raisins that are bigger!

Pomegranates

Okay, this really pisses me off.. Why are you charging $5.00 for a ball of seed! For one pomegranate it is literally almost $6.00! All the damn sweat and tears to even eat this damn thing! If someone had to prepare it for me, I can understand a little… BUT WHY

Cauliflower

Forget it…I can’t even get into how stupid the cost of this thing is. Organic or not it is completely out of my diet now. NO ONE WHO MAKES LESS THEN 20 DOLLARS AN HOUR CAN AFFORD YOU! WHY DO YOU EXIST!?!

If any of you share the same frustration as me…let me know if you have any tricks up your sleeve. Maybe you know of a certain grocery store that has sales? Or maybe somewhere were they respect a hard earned dollar so I don’t have to harvest my organs to buy groceries!

Today I felt like a rant. So here it is.

 

 

 

INTO THE BLACK- CHROMATICS (2012)

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My, my
Hey, hey
Rock and Roll
Is here to stay
It’s better to burn out
Than to fade away

My, my
Hey, hey
Out of the blue
Into the black
They give you this
But you pay for that
Once you’re gone
You can never come back
When you’re
Out of the blue
Into the black

The King is gone
But he’s not forgotten
This is the story of Johnny Rotten
It’s better to burn out than it is to rust
The King is gone but he’s not forgotten

Hey, hey
My, my
Rock and Roll
Can never die
There’s more to the picture
Than meets the eye
Hey, hey
My, my

My Trip To Italy

Being Italian and all, I had to visit my land! I traveled back in September 2018 for a week. It was something that was on my bucket list for the longest time that I was finally able to achieve.

The trip consisted of visiting three major cities Rome, Florence, and Venice. With small visits to Assisi, Siena, Bologna, Padua, and Montepulcino. I traveled with a friend that I wouldn’t say I am close with, nor an acquaintance. We use to work together as massage therapists in a clinic back in 2015. We keep in touch an hang out with some of the other girls we worked with at the clinic. I guess we also went as a group to the cottage two times back in 2016 and 2017. I had a pretty good sense of who she is out of work so I randomly said to her one day “we should travel to Italy together”.. she agreed with my proposal.

Two months after our discussion, the trip was booked. We decided that it would be best to fly to Italy together, so I got another plane home for the day before we were scheduled to leave Canada. This is it, my dreams are coming true, I am going to ITALY!

Here are some photos I thought I would share from my trip. There was literally thousands but I won’t torture you 🙂

Basilica of Saint Francis of Assisi

Views from Assisi

In the Piazza of Siena

Piazza Del Campo

Siena Duomo

Views from Piazzale Di Michelangelo Firenze

Statute of David

Arno River, Florence

Duomo and Santa Croce

Eating gelato ❤️

Last night in Rome 😦

Bologna

Piazza Bologna

Gondola Rides in Venice

Venice by night St. Mark’s Square (Piazza San Marco) Basilica di San Marco behind us

First Gonadal ride ❤

Views in Montepulciano (Tuscany)

Duomo Basilica de San Pedro

St. Peter’s Basilica

St. Peter’s Basilica – Rome

Ruins in Rome

Colosseum- Rome

Piazza di Spagna – Spanish Steps

Trevi Fountain

Trevi Fountain